When The Clock Strikes 10:05

Written by Claire Hookstra

The indie-rock Nashville-based group, COIN, disbanded in January 2025 in the middle of their ‘I’m Not Afraid of Tour Anymore’ tour across North America. While disbanding for good reasons, the sudden news, delivered via an Instagram post, shocked many fans nationwide. While the band may have found its conclusion, the music that changed the lives of so many continues to live on. 

“Let It All Out (10:05)” is the last track of the band’s 2019 album, Dreamland. Becoming a symbol of belonging and connection to the fanbase, “10:05” became COIN fans’ own version of angel numbers. Every day, photographs of clocks showcasing the time or house numbers that read “1005 were shared on various social media sites.” Former lead singer, Chase Lawrence, coined the timestamp as his own sign from above, posting it on his social media for years before the track's release. The song, serving as a sense of meaning to the fanbase, ties together the entirety of the Dreamland album, navigating feelings of reaching one’s breaking point and having no choice but to “let it all out.” 

The song begins with a slow, mellow beat. Lawrence bluntly expresses, “When you love something but you’ve had enough / When you hold someone but you’re losing touch.” Feelings of defeat surround these opening lines, as Lawrence delivers them as if he has become emotionally detached from whatever challenge lies before him. The pain caused by the slow derailment of a relationship, whether that is with himself or with another, is referred to as “rubbing salt deep in the cut.” He is surrounded by pain, wondering if anything is still worth his effort. 

Continuing with a steady drum beat and subtle and sparse guitar riffs, Lawrence continues to ponder existence throughout the second verse. “I’m a thousand miles from my front door / and I can't recall what I came here for,” the artist states. A variance from the first verse, Lawrence now reaches a moment of frustration with his longing to give up on himself.  “My skin is thick, but I can’t take much more,” he declares, as the sonic elements of the track slowly swell. 

Arguably the most pivotal moment of the now ex-band’s discography follows, as an acoustic guitar begins to sporadically strum into existence and a choral voice bursts through the instrumentals. “Oh, I've been waiting / For something to change but / I can’t escape this waterfall of doubt,” the voice wails. Reminiscent of a choir, a reverbed and ominous female voice adds euphoria to the climactic bridge of the track. “All my blood, sweat, and tears / For twenty-some years / All bottled up and broken,” she longs. This brief moment expresses the breaking point of Lawrence. He has decided he can no longer stay silent, no longer take the pain he has been dealt, and he must, as the title suggests, “let it all out.”

This song serves as more than just a personal remark of Lawrence. I firmly believe that anyone can find meaning in this track, manipulating the lyrics to relate to their own experiences. Everyone, no matter how old or young, has felt hopeless at times. Wanting to scream but nowhere and no time to do so, feeling lost in your own skin, feeling like your own worst enemy. This song takes those ideas, relays them over a mellowed production, and ultimately teaches us how to let these faults and anxieties out. 

Building a community that led their lives following the mottos of “learning and loving” and “How will you know if you never try?,” COIN’s disbandment proved to be a shock to several indie lovers. “Home is a COIN show,” a phrase that commonly captioned fans’ posts and self-made merch, may prove haunting now, as we long for those shows that made us feel so accepted and loved. The collective of the band and fans was built by Chase Lawrence, he was the one that made sure each fan felt seen and heard.

Though it stings, what fans have to remember is that these songs still exist in space, they still soundtracked our coming of age, and those shows were still home for a time. The hopeful message of "Let It All Out (10:05)" lives on, reminding the nostalgic fan (much like myself) from time to time of the memories of COIN shows, that it's okay to feel, and that life is always a continuous cycle of learning and loving.